Spartan, self-sabotage & showing up…


When I signed up for Spartan, I had an image in mind. I have previously done two Tough Mudder Obstacle Races and Warrior Dash. Tough Mudder being my favourite as it combines adventure and runs over approximately 20km give or take.

It pushes your limits both mentally and physically, to try things you would most likely never have done before and push yourself to stay with your team, keep moving, keep working and keep encouraging.

So when I signed up to the 7km Spartan Sprint, I registered my team and was looking forward to a team experience. Unfortunately, they closed the time slot and I was unable to get my clients and friends to join it with me! Luckily, Claire (my friend and long term client), did sneak her way in, and we completed the event together (Yay).

Something I have been thinking a lot about lately is committing myself 100%. In all areas of my life. But when I got up and got ready for Spartan on Saturday morning, I was honestly feeling uninspired. I had been up since 1.30am with an unnecessary worry in my mind and a headache. Claire arrived on Saturday morning her bubbly, super awesome self, and I was kind of mojo-less.

The beat of the music and the resounding chanting of “WE ARE SPARTAN!!”, pumped us up by setting the mood at the starting line and off we ran. I would describe Spartan as half Boot-Camp, half Adventure race. Certainly all the Obstacles challenged. What some lacked in adventure, they made up for in difficulty. It was expected that at each obstacle you complete 30 burpees, if you couldn’t successfully complete the obstacle. My favourite obstacle would have been somewhere in between the sand bag hill climb and wading/swimming through the mud and water. It was icy cold and I would have been disappointed if I didn’t get saturated with mud at some stage of the race!

Spartan Sprint and Beast May 2015

Spartan Sprint and Beast May 2015

We finished the race in under two hours. Consistently on the move but slowing between obstacles, burpees and recovery.

We finished the race together, however, I would be lying if I said I was not somewhat disappointed with myself. For although I participated in the race, I really felt that I didn’t give it 100%.

Being a Personal Trainer and Life Coach, has given me the courage to try new things, more fitness than I ever imagined I could possess and the most amazing people in the world to work with everyday. It has given me insight and an awareness of who I am and has kept me humble, but it has not made me perfect.

I believe, you only get out what you put in. Because I went in to the race, feeling less than inspired, I was unlikely to feel fantastic about the result.

But I turned up. I started. I finished.

At some time or another, life, our work, our family and other commitments can get us down and distract us. Every workout may not be our best. It may not make us our proudest. But when you have a goal that matters, you must turn up anyway. Your best today may be better or worse than yesterday. But if you don’t show up for your goal, you get no result at all.

I’m choosing to let this situation prepare me better for the next time. To plan better, to train better, to choose better and to feel better.

It’s a mistake to think that staying inspired and motivated is easy for others. Some days are going to be harder than others. What’s important is understanding your reason why. The reason why you want to keep going and the reason you need to keep going.

Everyone’s reason why is different. For me, I want to serve as an inspiration to my children, to be a healthy and happy partner and mother and to inspire and motivate my clients to love themselves enough to look after their health and happiness.

Find your reason, and you may find your inspiration and motivation to show up, not just for a goal, but for your why, your values, your heart.

Photos by Aurora Images